Pan – a door to existence

Living with Pan the main experience for me is of total trust.
Growing up in a Christian society there was one strong imprint:”Trust in god” (which actually meant give away the responsibility for your life).
When I became older, I translated it for myself into “Trust in Life”, but it always stayed a theoretical idea since I never recognized the mind, the I, which ongoing ruled this body mind system and for which trust is a book with seven seals.

Luckily eight years ago I met life directly with one full stroke. I came to know a man in whom there was no more ruling I, no more mind in between the connection to existence. I met Pan.

When the vastness of existence suddenly becomes manifested in a human being which is completely open for sharing this incredible space, the mind becomes darn afraid to take it, but by taking the jump it becomes completely flooded.

It is much easier to start trusting in a human being, trusting unconditionally that whatever comes from him is a direct hint from existence, the voice of consciousness inside of me which I have forgotten to hear. Falling in tune, giving up “my will” and getting a glimpse how blissful it can be to step out of the way and be directly connected to ALL means watching more and more that life starts living itself – and that it works actually the best when I stay out....
Pan is for me a gate, a door to existence, an always open invitation to leave the mind aside and open the eyes for reality, for a world where everything and every body is connected and no problem exists. He is the real friend who has taken the challenge to function as a midwife for the self waiting to be born in everybody.

Sometimes it feels very certain that life itself has brought me here to this place in its mysterious ways to reveal itself to a heart which has longed already ages for this.....

Thank you, Pan
in love and gratitude
Parvati