Living with Pan is a permanently new experience.

By now I'm living about 5 years close to him.
A lot has happened, in me, in him, in the creation around him.
It is a very alive happening, BuddhaHill. A being together of friends. Actually it is a growing together, a “becoming” friend to oneself and by this also starting to accept the so called “others”.

It feels like tuning into another dimension. A dimension, much much bigger of what I came to know before meeting Pan.
He is permanently vibrating in this dimension.
And the dimension is expanding, is becoming a higher, finer vibration, feelable in me, seeable in the creation around Pan and always first manifesting/realising in him.
It feels like a journey, like a long centipede: Pan is the first foot, always ahead, entering the unknown, the people living around him are like all the other feet. Passing the same places /stages, a little later, always in the time the individual is ripe/open to that place/space/experience.

This creation is out of all what humans tried to define themselves through. It goes beyond all that one could think “I” am.

First, there was fear. Just to meet him, to be in one of these mysterious sessions, where everybody starts trembling. Then, living with him, falling in tune, it becomes a pull. A pull to be always in unknown situations. In situations that are “too much" for the me. Too much, to hold my “self” together. By now, it pulls to go into situations, where “I” fall apart. Where all boundaries start melting, where there is just relaxation.

Relaxation is trusting into what is happening. There is trust into Pan and into what is happening around him.

A deep gratefulness is arising towards the only real friend, trusting me.
And through him, his readiness to share, there are more friends growing in trust, becoming real.
My life is dedicated to what is living in him.
So that it can become a reality in me & in the friends, living and being connected to him.

Thank You,
Love You,
Shiva